Finding Myself & Favorites

"True art is characterized by an irresistible urge in the creative artist"

-Albert Einstein

       I have a strange obsession with Albert Einstein. It's nothing strange I swear- I don't have a thing for dead guys, but seriously there's something inspiring about him. I always find some way to weave (not relating to fake hair) him into life. I think it's because as far as crazy people go, he was king. And that somehow that makes me feel a lot better about myself. Because I can be a complete freak and yet I'd never be able to reach his level of craziness.

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       So lately I've stuck deep in thought about life and how I seem to mess up... alot. Looking back at my highschool years, they were the most amazing but yet at the same time awkward and destructive memories I will probably ever make.. and then there's college of course, but that's a different story.

      The many regrets of this year are something I don't really want to focus on but I do think it's important I tell you for the sake of my sanity.

      Things I regret my senior year:

   1. Not switching to a different instrument second semester

   2. Biology AP

   

Yup that's basically it. I'm over dramatic you might say but this is literally what consists of my stress this year. And although I've had worse struggles in previous years, I don't know somehow I feel that's what built the person I am now. I know it sounds cheesy, I know, but bear with me I mean c'mon you were a teenager once/ are one now. Back me up on this one. Through all the beautiful mess and lovely adventures with friends I somehow discovered my person, does that make any sense at all? I hope so >.<

      This follows with the next segment: My favorite things ^.^

      I don't mean to sound conceited at all with this title, I just mean that I am starting to identify that many things that make me "Marcia" and not just a phase or just experimenting with certain things about my life.

 My Favorite Things That Make Me, Me.**

1. Deep jacket pockets, so when i get nervous and my hands get cold, I can have someplace safe to put them in

2. Fluffy socks (I feel like a little kid when I put them on, they're great for sliding across wooden floors and feeling cozy when I feel extra lonely)

3. Quirky movies that make me love life too much sometimes like Moonlight Kingdom, Perks of Being a Wallflower, Little Miss Sunshine ...etc.

4. People that wear their inner deep super secret personalities, whether it be in the way that they talk, the way the express their creativity, tattoos, quirky clothing, unique crazy wild daring hair colors/ hair styles, their hobbies (i just love this about people)

5. Harry Potter, the Percy Jackson Series, the Fosters, Lilo and Stitch, the Big Bang Theory... some of the many worlds I am obsessed with <3

6. F-0-0-D (specifically Yoshinoya) and this is a big one for me because of my self consciousness, I get really uncomfortable with my body a lot and so I tend to tug at my clothes a lot to make sure it's never too tight or I feel very guilty. Then I remind myself that it's not always about the weight, and even though I live in a weight obsessed world, there are time when I can enjoy my food peacefully without hearing the word "fat".

7. YouTube, so basically like Ben Green, Dan and Phil, Andy, Dameon Fizzy, Rose and Rosie, Marissa and Heather, Nerdy and Quirky, Ally Hills- they're all like my internet obsessions and role models, i seriously hope they know how much of a positive influence these internet gods have dazed me with, I wish I had an inch of their confidence p:

8. The Vaccines, Mariana's Trench, Tegan and Saraff- my music for life's sake. These bands are my high school background music whether it be adventures, good times, bad horrid messy ugly mess ups, hurtful memories, just life in general really.

9. Gravity Falls- I am obsessed with this show and it has a lot of creepy stuff that I can relate to, I love the fact that Mabel has never worn the same sweater twice, that the characters have so much depth to them they're like book characters o.o

10. Tumblr... loodloodloodloop. 

      This is my berry messy crazy top 10 favorite lovely things in life that make Marcia go woop woop and crank out really awkward dance moves that some strangers at Sam's Club once saw ... I may have scarred them for life as I crawled away sneakily taking some food samples on my way to find my parents in the lotion aisle. *REALLY LOUD SIGH* I LOVE MY FRIENDS THEY ARE AMAZING PEOPLE OKAY BYE. :D

no but seriously some of my friends i want to share with other people so they don't miss out on this sparkly personality with funky dance moves and butter popcorn music tastes.. lots of butter popcorn- okay i should stop now I don't know where I'm going with this I should stop. I hope you enjoyed another day in the life of this crazy person-teenager-thing that responds to weird animal calls and the smell of food.

Sincerely, the Resilience of a Teenager