Letter 1.

my first letter to my ex-significant other, she left for boot camp in the military and I ached the second month I couldn't take it.

Jan. 08, 2017

It feels weird not hearing from you. Exhausting as this sounds, I still haven't cried. You found out it's 3 more months, is it bad that I'm not worried? Maybe this is selfishness, or my lack of sympathy because it's not my place to feel bad for others, or these emotions are too wound up, my emotions too braided they cannot exist without the other. And this brain of mine is headed to Berkeley. Maybe I'm so used to being alone that I already felt the impact but these old wounds have developed a thicker skin in terms of hurt and what to expect. Don't worry this is the beginning. Hopefully you are feeling better after you cry everything out that's what my mom would tell me until we stopped crying forever. Do you need your tears to be kissed away or do you need them to hide under sweat and mud? Tell me what you need. I'm yours for the keeping.